Hope

I have been told I should write more here… and perhaps i should… but at the same time i do not want to waste words. Sometimes I don’t have anything to say, and sometimes there is something there… but it is not yet ripe. Well… it is now ripe.

The Bible says this. (well it says allot of things… this is one of them)Luke 10:19 Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you.

“God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks to us in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: It is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world”

~C.S. Lewis 

Here’s the thing. I see ALLOT of people hurting… and very very few people listening.  Mr. Lewis  is right… when we are happy God is there, and will speak… but sometimes it seems quiet… or more like… if we are happy, we are not listening. if we are doing something wrong of course our conscience will let us know… but in our PAIN… this is when God is saying…” YO!!!!! WAKE UP!!!!!! YOUR IN TROUBLE!!!!!!!!

A Doctor friend of mine says your body is not supposed to hurt… if there is pain there is something wrong, something out of place. Well same thing here. If there is pain… there is something wrong, because… if there is pain, we are not walking in the Power of God, and if we are powerless, it means we are not in his will.

Pro 26:2 As the bird by wandering, as the swallow by flying, so the curse causeless shall not come.

if we are under a curse of any kind, be it generational, or just pain or disease or anything… there is a cause. and the curse or the pain itself is God saying… we need to talk… something need to be fixed.here’s the thing. again… lots of hurt… very few ears out there. we would rather have a doctor give us some chemicals to cover some symptoms than get to the root of the problem. And here’s where I come in.

After seeing this over and over and over time after time… so many times I cannot remember… and even now see it all over… I realized tonight… that with people, even or especially with the church… and even… to an extent… myself… I have just lost all hope.Needless to say this was a shocker for me… I was like… lost hope? huh? when in the world did that happen… really I must have hope about something… lets see… and… hmmm… nothing. I don’t know when I lost it, or where… or why… or which straw it was that broke the camels back, and made what little hope I had left float unnoticed into the void… but I found it gone.

But knowing is half the battle… It’s new years… Time for a new resolution. 2 Years ago i resolved to get closer to God… and I did (still am WOOT), This past year I resolved to loose my addictions… I have done better than ever before… going forward… I will be more than a conqueror.  This year I am going to let God grow hope in me again. Speak hope when I can… Sow hope where I can… and from those seeds, I will regain my hope. This I resolve.

New Years day… My Uncle Scotty died one year ago new years. It was hard… allot of people have no father figure in their lives… I have been blessed not only in my biological father, but I have had a number of father figures as well, People very close to me. Uncle Scotty was one of them. Here’s the thing… He was not only the closest person I have had die in my life so far… but he was not saved. I am at peace knowing every opportunity I could have taken… I spread the word to him… but lets be honest… he was very, and at times, vehemently against Christ. Especially the last time I talked to him. This year is the first anniversary of his passing, and honestly I don’t, nor did I see much chance of seeing him in heaven. But no one but he a God knows what happened in the last seconds of his life… I suppose… in every situation… there is always hope.